Open Question: is there something wrong with me?!?!?!?!?

im a 13 year old female. things i love: love itself(lesbian) cellos neo classical music roses (black/red/blue) the color white because it can absorb and form into any color without a change and vampires. i find them beautifully romantic. i am a lesbian like i said but the bloodthirst, dominance, mystic beauty, darkness, passion, rebellion, love, seductive controlling beautiful fantasy creatures. i am not a psycho but i am crazily obsessed with them. no one knows much about me. at school im the loudmuthed one without a friend in the world. but in my heart i feel like im in love with someone, there is no one but my life is full of fantasies . i want a girlfriend who i can whole heartedly care about. unendlessly, passionatly, with no fights, pur love. i feel like i have this but i have no one. i have myself. is this just extreme love for myself. i constantly worry. and i dont have a loving familey. infact i have the most disfunctional family i know. i feel extreme pain to care for someone. but i dont want a friend. i never had friends. there were people that act like my best friend just to see what retarted things i say/do and then tell there real friends. i hate that. but i just want 1 soulmate. i do not need a therapist and im not mentally ill. i long to be that vampire. i wish i was that beautiful vampire i described. maybe i could use this pain to write? i have written b4. and i love art. when i grow up i plan on writing japanese anime story lines, and manga/graphic noveles. i know how to speak japanese fluently. and i could write an autobiography that would leave peple breathless...i have had ALOT, almost worse than a drama series, go on im my life, its so much tht its scarry. i dont know. please help